[You are greeted with the sound of randomly disrupted static, at the end of which three melodic beeping signals are heard. Yep, that's your cue to leave a message!]
I admit, I'm not quite up to date on what everyone's doing in connection with the Production, Heaven and Hell. But I trust Jason's decisions here, so... I suppose we shall see. As for C himself... He looks to be an idealist of sorts. Not a bad person, but rather too chaotic.
[There's a noncommittal shrug at that first part. Maybe it's just fuckin around, maybe not. Who knows!]
Trying to distract myself, mainly. Lily and Alexander need my attention rather more right now. I've spoken of my suspicions and fears with some of my friends, so I am not entirely without support, nor do I want to panic preemptively. So I am simply keeping busy until Alexander is recovered enough that we can speak of all this. D.Va is teaching me to drive, I've bought a car, we had a meeting with Absinthe in dreams last night, I still have projects to work on. There is plenty to take my mind off things, but I won't deny that it worries me still.
[Hmmmm... He drums his fingers on the side of the cup.]
I... don't know. At the moment it's perhaps the uncertainty that weighs on me, but if what I suspect is indeed true it would be... quite a lot to contend with. I would possibly barricade myself in the lab again, or...
[He shrugs.]
...do something more destructive, perhaps. I won't deny I've been feeling more--restless, as it were.
Would you like to speak with me on the topic, or wait until Alexander has recovered to speak with him? Either way I an sure the other of us will be available for any followup you have.
[ur one to talk mr healthy coping through genocide and brainwashing
Levity regards him for a few long moments, thinking on the offer.]
...I wonder. Ideally, I would want to speak with you both. Even if you were to tell me right now, I still come to see Alexander every other day. He would obviously notice that I'm affected by this, and that would just force him into a conversation on the topic when he's not yet ready. So I would prefer to wait, I believe. Like I said, I have support from other sources, so I am not in danger of crumbling anytime soon.
I will, don't worry. Mainly... right now I would ask you to look after Lily when I am not here. She's very fragile... we are doing all we can for her, but love and support from her fathers would go a long way to help her too, I believe.
Well, I do have to wonder what's so troublesome about me making friends! It's not exactly as though people I know really have anything bad to say about you two.
[Like there's also Absinthe but. Disliking Absinthe is street legal.]
Well, that's true enough. Jason hates Absinthe quite cordially, but that doesn't stop me from being good friends with both. But Alexander did say there is one person who he would feel unhappy about being friends with me, but he didn't say who it might be.
Perhaps one might say they are... repulsive? Certainly on the surface a pleasant enough individual I'm sure. But if you look past the personality, a bit deeper, one can only see horror.
Re: 349idk
Date: 2021-04-08 08:49 am (UTC)[He sighs.]
What a dilemma. How do you feel about it?
Re: 349idk
Date: 2021-04-08 09:01 am (UTC)I admit, I'm not quite up to date on what everyone's doing in connection with the Production, Heaven and Hell. But I trust Jason's decisions here, so... I suppose we shall see. As for C himself... He looks to be an idealist of sorts. Not a bad person, but rather too chaotic.
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Date: 2021-04-08 09:08 am (UTC)Of more importance is how you are feeling.
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Date: 2021-04-08 09:20 am (UTC)Trying to distract myself, mainly. Lily and Alexander need my attention rather more right now. I've spoken of my suspicions and fears with some of my friends, so I am not entirely without support, nor do I want to panic preemptively. So I am simply keeping busy until Alexander is recovered enough that we can speak of all this. D.Va is teaching me to drive, I've bought a car, we had a meeting with Absinthe in dreams last night, I still have projects to work on. There is plenty to take my mind off things, but I won't deny that it worries me still.
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Date: 2021-04-08 10:36 am (UTC)Tell me, are these distractions helping?
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Date: 2021-04-08 10:39 am (UTC)So far, yes. It's better than dwelling on it. But I can't guess how long they will keep helping.
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Date: 2021-04-08 10:40 am (UTC)Re: 349idk
Date: 2021-04-08 10:47 am (UTC)I... don't know. At the moment it's perhaps the uncertainty that weighs on me, but if what I suspect is indeed true it would be... quite a lot to contend with. I would possibly barricade myself in the lab again, or...
[He shrugs.]
...do something more destructive, perhaps. I won't deny I've been feeling more--restless, as it were.
Re: 349idk
Date: 2021-04-08 10:56 am (UTC)Would you like to speak with me on the topic, or wait until Alexander has recovered to speak with him? Either way I an sure the other of us will be available for any followup you have.
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Date: 2021-04-08 11:03 am (UTC)Levity regards him for a few long moments, thinking on the offer.]
...I wonder. Ideally, I would want to speak with you both. Even if you were to tell me right now, I still come to see Alexander every other day. He would obviously notice that I'm affected by this, and that would just force him into a conversation on the topic when he's not yet ready. So I would prefer to wait, I believe. Like I said, I have support from other sources, so I am not in danger of crumbling anytime soon.
Re: 349idk
Date: 2021-04-08 11:18 am (UTC)Then I will trust your judgment on your personal state. Though if there is aught I can do, do let me know.
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Date: 2021-04-08 11:20 am (UTC)I will, don't worry. Mainly... right now I would ask you to look after Lily when I am not here. She's very fragile... we are doing all we can for her, but love and support from her fathers would go a long way to help her too, I believe.
Re: 349idk
Date: 2021-04-08 11:25 am (UTC)[He takes a sip of tea, looking away at nothing thoughtfully.]
I am glad you have built up such a network of support, truly. Both for yourself and those you look after.
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Date: 2021-04-08 11:27 am (UTC)I am glad, too.
[He chuckles.]
Alexander asked me the other day if there is a unit I do not have friends on, and called me a troublemaker when I said there isn't.
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Date: 2021-04-08 11:30 am (UTC)Re: 349idk
Date: 2021-04-08 11:32 am (UTC)[Like there's also Absinthe but. Disliking Absinthe is street legal.]
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Date: 2021-04-08 11:34 am (UTC)Re: 349idk
Date: 2021-04-08 11:36 am (UTC)Well, that's true enough. Jason hates Absinthe quite cordially, but that doesn't stop me from being good friends with both. But Alexander did say there is one person who he would feel unhappy about being friends with me, but he didn't say who it might be.
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Date: 2021-04-08 11:40 am (UTC)Re: 349idk
Date: 2021-04-08 11:41 am (UTC)Re: 349idk
Date: 2021-04-08 11:48 am (UTC)Perhaps one might say they are... repulsive? Certainly on the surface a pleasant enough individual I'm sure. But if you look past the personality, a bit deeper, one can only see horror.
[That clears things up right.]
Re: 349idk
Date: 2021-04-08 11:50 am (UTC)...You do realize that is what a good number of people would say about Absinthe as well?
Re: 349idk
Date: 2021-04-08 11:54 am (UTC)And I care not what many people would say or think. I judge with my own eyes and experiences.
Is that not how you, also, approach things?
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Date: 2021-04-08 12:00 pm (UTC)Re: 349idk
Date: 2021-04-08 12:05 pm (UTC)[He just shrugs and sips his tea.]
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