[You are greeted with the sound of randomly disrupted static, at the end of which three melodic beeping signals are heard. Yep, that's your cue to leave a message!]
Ahaha . . . I've been here since this city first opened, so I've many relationships—and besides that, I don't make it a priority to visit regularly; I've visited only as a call of duty rather than a call of friendship, so it's natural that you wouldn't know.
Ah, I see... I hope this visit needn't be only out of duty, however. I've... troubled a fair share of people already.
[He smiles tiredly, taking a cup and pulling his feet up on the sofa to half-curl up.]
...Thank you for visiting. I would like to reiterate that... you truly haven't anything to apologize for. If this is about what I think it's about, of course.
[...]
I... do not mind speaking of it. Some of it. But I would ask you to avoid mentioning his name.
It is, in part, duty, but in part it is borne from a selfish desire of mine—to know that you, a person that I'd like to become friends with, have been hurt by one of my countenance, and moreover by one of my relationships, is something that weighs deeply on me.
To speak nothing of the guilt, it is that I wished to reach out to you because I, quite selfishly, did not want our relationship to be strangled by that time.
[ a little softer, gaze falling to the teacups ]
. . . And, because I'm no stranger to pain.
Above all, it is no burden—Levity-san. If anything, I'm grateful to you for allowing me here.
['Strangled'. He closes his eyes at the word - it's neither the worst reminder nor the worst reaction he could have, but... well, it still makes him remember.]
...I'm... sorry that you have been hurt, too. By him, I assume.
...D.Va did not seem surprised, however... She said that it was, er, you being yourself. That was worrying.
. . . She isn't wrong. At least for myself, it was of my own volition. But, those with more regard for life and personal wellbeing than I would find it to be disturbing at the very least.
Levity stays silent for a time, then breathes out slowly.]
To tell you the truth... before, I would have agreed with you. I, too, have offered some of myself before... rather gladly. I was sympathetic. I wanted...
[He takes a deep breath, anxiety churning his stomach. It felt impossible to even remember at first, but... maybe he can come closer to putting it into words.
Heavens, it's still an ordeal, though.]
...You've... visited his mind too, yes? Which... places did you go to?
Levity feels that familiar dizziness again, brings up a hand to cover his eyes. Still... breathe in, breathe out. He can ground himself better these days.
Breathe in, breathe out. He's alive. No hands on his throat. He can feel the warmth of the cup in his hands, the scent of the tea. He's... alive.
Slowly, Levity nods.]
...all that is worst about him. Or perhaps... simply his true nature.
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Re: during among us
Date: 2021-02-13 05:32 am (UTC)My! Do I look so young? But it's Lucifel speaking.
Re: during among us
Date: 2021-02-13 05:33 am (UTC)[no shit sherlock]
Re: during among us
Date: 2021-02-13 05:35 am (UTC)Is it a bother . . . ?
Re: during among us
Date: 2021-02-13 05:40 am (UTC)[He waves him? her? in.]
Though... I can guess at why you would do this. In which case, thank you.
Re: during among us
Date: 2021-02-13 05:42 am (UTC)Hahaha, was it that obvious?
Re: during among us
Date: 2021-02-13 05:55 am (UTC)Mm... Maybe not as such. But not hard to deduce. And I do appreciate it.
[He gestures to the FiN welcome room hallway.]
Shall we go? I've prepared the tea already.
Re: during among us
Date: 2021-02-13 05:59 am (UTC)[ setting the shoes to the side, before starting to move down the hall, slow enough that levity can take the lead if he wants ]
Re: during among us
Date: 2021-02-13 06:20 am (UTC)Make yourself at home. I think it's quite the cozy place.
[He sits down on the sofa, putting the tray down on the coffee table where there is already a very high-end kettle and two teacups.]
Re: during among us
Date: 2021-02-13 06:33 am (UTC)It's been a while since I last visited—what a nice room.
Re: during among us
Date: 2021-02-13 06:34 am (UTC)[...]
Well, of course I know some things. But rather few of them.
Re: during among us
Date: 2021-02-13 06:44 am (UTC)Re: during among us
Date: 2021-02-13 06:47 am (UTC)[He smiles tiredly, taking a cup and pulling his feet up on the sofa to half-curl up.]
...Thank you for visiting. I would like to reiterate that... you truly haven't anything to apologize for. If this is about what I think it's about, of course.
[...]
I... do not mind speaking of it. Some of it. But I would ask you to avoid mentioning his name.
Re: during among us
Date: 2021-02-13 06:58 am (UTC)To speak nothing of the guilt, it is that I wished to reach out to you because I, quite selfishly, did not want our relationship to be strangled by that time.
[ a little softer, gaze falling to the teacups ]
. . . And, because I'm no stranger to pain.
Above all, it is no burden—Levity-san. If anything, I'm grateful to you for allowing me here.
Re: during among us
Date: 2021-02-13 07:04 am (UTC)...I'm... sorry that you have been hurt, too. By him, I assume.
...D.Va did not seem surprised, however... She said that it was, er, you being yourself. That was worrying.
Re: during among us
Date: 2021-02-13 07:11 am (UTC)[ pauses, giving a sheepish sort of laugh ]
. . . She isn't wrong. At least for myself, it was of my own volition. But, those with more regard for life and personal wellbeing than I would find it to be disturbing at the very least.
Re: during among us
Date: 2021-02-13 07:29 am (UTC)Levity stays silent for a time, then breathes out slowly.]
To tell you the truth... before, I would have agreed with you. I, too, have offered some of myself before... rather gladly. I was sympathetic. I wanted...
[He cuts off. Heavens, he was so naive.]
...I was an idiot. Much like everyone said.
Re: during among us
Date: 2021-02-13 08:50 am (UTC)[ listening to him, quiet for a few beats ]
Might I ask, what happened . . . ?
Re: during among us
Date: 2021-02-13 08:54 am (UTC)Heavens, it's still an ordeal, though.]
...You've... visited his mind too, yes? Which... places did you go to?
Re: during among us
Date: 2021-02-13 08:58 am (UTC)Re: during among us
Date: 2021-02-13 08:59 am (UTC)...the last one. There was--the closet, that I thought to be the source...
Re: during among us
Date: 2021-02-13 09:01 am (UTC)thank god he decided to go for the bed first. ]
. . . He was inside, wasn't he?
Re: during among us
Date: 2021-02-13 09:06 am (UTC)Levity feels that familiar dizziness again, brings up a hand to cover his eyes. Still... breathe in, breathe out. He can ground himself better these days.
Breathe in, breathe out. He's alive. No hands on his throat. He can feel the warmth of the cup in his hands, the scent of the tea. He's... alive.
Slowly, Levity nods.]
...all that is worst about him. Or perhaps... simply his true nature.
Re: during among us
Date: 2021-02-13 09:13 am (UTC)Before this, you were friends with him, were you not . . . ?
Re: during among us
Date: 2021-02-13 09:17 am (UTC)...Yes. And maybe more than friends.
[It was the standard imeeji relationship of half fwb, half dating, ok.]
Re: during among us
Date: 2021-02-13 09:19 am (UTC)[ a pause
softer, ]
. . . I don't believe what you knew of him was any less his nature than what you endured in that place.
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