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I visited a dream of Elidibus's then he woke me to check on Vergil, so not as well as I could have.

And you?

[haha!]

Did something happen to Vergil?

I think I was caught in the same dream of Elidibus's as you. Though I imagine it... must have gone differently for you.

...Of course, Elidibus mentioned you had... forgive me. In my own distress I forgot.

Are you all right, Hythlodaeus?

Edited 2022-01-21 08:50 (UTC)

[Waves a hand! He's Fine!

(he's not fine he just learned the lifehack of not thinking about things too hard or at all)]

Oh, I am well enough. But Elidibus was rather shaken by my presence there, and now that you say you argued... I'm more worried about how you two are faring.

[No ancient had been fine for a long ass time but he sighs and starts getting a pot of tea and cups together on a tray.]

Given what I know of that dream I shall worry regardless.

As for myself... I am not a kind man when cornered or upset.

[He pours hot water into the pot and picks up the tray.]

Elidibus is sturdy, but we each have our weak points. Most especially with each other. I worry that he may have taken something said in cruelty to heart. And yet I suspect he would never reveal to me if he did.

Ideally he did not, but it is my lot to worry incessantly I suppose.

[He watches the tray curiously - evidently Lahabrea intends for them to speak elsewhere, which... is actually quite a relief. Perhaps Levity could even talk more about the dream if it's in private.

There are other concerns to address first, though, so he'll just focus on those for now.]

I don't know what you said exactly, of course, but... I doubt that he would truly take your words to heart. He is always thinking of you two, and I'm certain that he would take your emotional state into account. But if it worries you, I can try speaking with him to see if he was truly hurt by it.

[He's going to head for the room he shares with Emet and set them up on the comfy couches.]

I would appreciate that. If nothing else perhaps he will confide in you, whether it be hurt or frustration. Certainly I am not the easiest man to work or get along with at times.

[peeks around just to check if Emet is there, for no reason at all, don't mind him]

I shall speak with him, then. But I am still moved to remind you once more that he loves you greatly, even if you might argue at times.

[Reaching to get a cup of tea for himself]

But if you are looking for something a little more specific as a way of making amends... Elidibus wants your respect. Perhaps making some gesture to show you acknowledge him as an equal, that there are things he can guide you on or that you can turn to him for... It might be good for him.

[No reason for looking for his boyfriend!

He was going to serve Levity but that also works. He'll sit back with his own tea.]

He already has my respect... but did you have something in mind?

[no reason! look he doesn't know if bread knows or not]

Well, he still worries about it. He seems to feel as though he must always do more and more to make sure he is someone you can respect.

Normally I would suggest something more roundabout, but... why not simply say it to him outright? Elidibus values openness. Tell him what you like, what you admire about him. He is rather confused about things like comfort and relaxation, but I believe he would find it easier to understand appreciation.

[He takes a thoughtful sip.]

And for something more concrete... A game of chess, perhaps? Have him as your opponent. That way he is both your equal and potentially someone who can even outdo you. Not someone who has to keep chasing after you, but someone you acknowledge.

[He doesn't know anything current but he did kind of always assume it was a matter of time.

He sips his tea thoughtfully, nodding.]

I was right to seek your advice I think. Thank you, your suggestions are quite insightful.

I can but attempt to offer my sincerity in such ways and see how it works.

[How come literally everyone but hyth and emet themselves knew. How could that happen.]

I am glad to be of help. When I spoke with him last night, he was quite distraught that you and Hades do not share your troubles with him, and that his attempts to comfort you are brushed aside while you fuss over him instead. So I do think being more open - even if it is about being unable to be open - would help reassure him. I suppose all three of you are rather similar when it comes to taking care of others and neglecting yourselves.

We are far too similar in the worst of ways.

[He sighs.]

But you have offered me some valuable insight at least. I thank you for it.

And what of you?

[Reaches out to pat Bread on the knee

but then

hm.

For a bit he obviously contemplates replying with "what of me?", but he can also tell that likely isn't going to fly. Instead, he stares into his cup, then takes another draught.]

... As I said. Well enough, if a little... tired.

[Make that VERY tired, but you know.]

That is certainly understandable. I will not press if you do not wish to speak, but I will listen if you do.

[Stares into the cup for... a while, gaze a little vacant. He seems to be weighing whether to talk about it or not, but eventually he does speak.]

... I took another memory the other day.

What was it of?

My final farewell with Hades.

[His voice is quiet, a little distant, though he does his best to make it sound more like aloof amusement.]

Now I know what happened to me. And thanks to Elidibus... now I know what came of it, too.

... That is quite a lot to remember and experience, Hythlodaeus.

How do you feel about it?

I don't.

[FUN LIFEHACK: just ignore feelings. Also, his brain is still stewing in leftover dream Zodiark juice.]

[Buddy.]

Pardon?

[Not that he doesn't also. Just ignore feelings.]

Surprising, isn't it? I'd have expected myself to be more shocked, too. But I feel quite content, really.

[WHY could that possibly BE]

...I wonder if that is a combination of shock and lingering influence.

I have no desire for you to feel grief and trauma at your own fate, but it does concern me, your lack of concern.

Elidibus said something like that in the dream, too. Or rather, he was quite unwilling to let me stay there, even though it made me feel much better than I ever have.

[He has very confused memories of it because if he thinks about it it just makes him want to go sleep in the Zodiark Soup forever.]

Of course he would feel concern. None of us wish for you to be tempered.

Still. If it brings you comfort, then it concerns me less for the moment. Should you feel that waning, however, do not hesitate to seek one of us.

I do not know if it would be... harsh for you. But I worry.

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