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[weenwoon]

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Re: Day 437

[temperedinpride]

[Buddy.]


Pardon?

[Not that he doesn't also. Just ignore feelings.]

Re: Day 437

[weenwoon]

Surprising, isn't it? I'd have expected myself to be more shocked, too. But I feel quite content, really.

[WHY could that possibly BE]

Re: Day 437

[temperedinpride]

...I wonder if that is a combination of shock and lingering influence.

I have no desire for you to feel grief and trauma at your own fate, but it does concern me, your lack of concern.

Re: Day 437

[weenwoon]

Elidibus said something like that in the dream, too. Or rather, he was quite unwilling to let me stay there, even though it made me feel much better than I ever have.

[He has very confused memories of it because if he thinks about it it just makes him want to go sleep in the Zodiark Soup forever.]

Re: Day 437

[temperedinpride]

Of course he would feel concern. None of us wish for you to be tempered.

Still. If it brings you comfort, then it concerns me less for the moment. Should you feel that waning, however, do not hesitate to seek one of us.

I do not know if it would be... harsh for you. But I worry.

Re: Day 437

[weenwoon]

[He tips his head thoughtfully.]

That was something Elidibus said, too. That he would not actually wish to temper me. I can't say I understand that hesitation completely.

[How to tell when someone is Not Doing Great: "what's so wrong about brainwashing"]

Re: Day 437

[temperedinpride]

... Can you not? Most are vehemently repulsed by the concept.

[You aren't okay at all huh?]

Re: Day 437

[weenwoon]

I was uncomfortable with it before, too. And worried about you and Hades... and Elidibus after his arrival. But I can't discount the comfort it brings, and so it comes as a surprise that you would not wish to spread it.

Re: Day 437

[temperedinpride]

You know that comfort comes with a steep cost.

Indeed our wills remain largely intact. But it cannot be denied that is not entirely the case. Zodiark would never wish us harm or do us ill, yet to spread His influence would be doing just that.

Re: Day 437

[weenwoon]

Elidibus did ask me if I thought that comfort was worth giving up my free will. But ultimately... how does one truly define free will? And is it really a bad thing to give up a measure of it in exchange for security and comfort? People might find it repulsive merely because they do not truly understand. Having any strong conviction that one is guided by, that one clings to... is that not the same as being tempered? Looking to something greater than ourselves to grant us strength and resolve, to shield us from pain, in whatever way that might be.

Not to mention that if you were to think logically, such distaste comes merely from being different. Eliminate those differences, temper everyone, and there would be no need for that discord. Would there?

[anyway here's his motivation letter to apply for an ascian position?]

1/2

[temperedinpride]

Re: Day 437

[temperedinpride]

[He sets his tea down, takes Hythlodaeus's hand gently to remove the tea from it and set it down as well, then pulls the man into a hug, if he can, trying to get Hythlodaeus to tuck his face against his chest or shoulder.]

Re: Day 437

[weenwoon]

[???? :) what's up with this, he was having a good time and doing great? He doesn't resist at all, though, hugging him back easily, resting his head on Lahabrea's shoulder... laughing into it.]

Lahabrea, what are you doing? Not that I don't appreciate the contact, of course...

[But why would u want to hug him... like he's sad or upset... ??? :) ]

Re: Day 437

[temperedinpride]

[He'll just, hold him tightly. He's not even sure what to say so it's a while before he manages any response. And the teasing tone is just a little strained.]

I believe they call this a hug, Hythlodaeus. Surely you've come across the concept.

Re: Day 437

[weenwoon]

[ENJOY YOUR NEWLY TEMPERED BUDDY! He chuckles again, patting Lahabrea on the back. He really does just... seem very content, very relaxed, very happy. It's very sweet, really! What is there to worry about?]

Is it? My, what a novel invention. Do tell me more.

Re: Day 437

[temperedinpride]

[Look only one person here has experienced untempering and while Hythlodaeus doesn't have thousands and thousands of years of genocide and ignored trauma and grief to confront when this wears off he does know it is going to be rough regardless?

He just, pets his hair.]

I... am glad you are content in this moment. I only wish you could be so without aid.

Re: Day 437

[weenwoon]

[He'll burn that bridge when he gets to it!]

Why, thank you. But are we ever content without aid in this place?

Re: Day 437

[temperedinpride]

I like to think being with loved ones can be helpful but I am not the best judge.

[Cuz. Tempered.]

Re: Day 437

[weenwoon]

It does help quite a bit, I admit.

[But also,]

And speaking of loved ones, I believe I should offer some belated congratulations to yourself and Elidibus.

Re: Day 437

[temperedinpride]

Pardon?

Re: Day 437

[weenwoon]

[FUFUFU]

On the, ah, true nature of your relationship?

Re: Day 437

[temperedinpride]

... The true nature of it? Is that what he calls it?

Re: Day 437

[weenwoon]

Hmm? What would you call it?

Re: Day 437

[temperedinpride]

An evolution of our relationship. I did not think it was lacking in any truth previously.

Re: Day 437

[weenwoon]

Well... I am not versed in the particulars of your relationship, much as I would love to be. But it seems that he was unaware of your - or his own feelings. Ah, and those of Hades, too. You make quite the adorable trio, if lacking in communication.