[You are greeted with the sound of randomly disrupted static, at the end of which three melodic beeping signals are heard. Yep, that's your cue to leave a message!]
Right? I owe so much to her, too. She's been there for me through everything that's happened to me since I arrived. And... some things I would have dealt with so much worse if not for her.
[He sighs, taking a sip of the drink.]
Glory once said that both me and Lily are the kind of person who is better at thinking about others than about ourselves. Though... I think you are like that too, Renny.
.....Yeaaah, you're not the first person to tell me that.
[She stopped counting after the second time.
She takes one hand back to grab her drink, continuing to hold his hand with the other.]
...she was the person who told me that it was okay to live... even if that meant hurting others. Even if I couldn't do anything. Back when I was ashamed of living, she stayed by my side and supported me.
So this... this is the least I can do for her. I don't think it's really possibly to repay her for everything she's done-- but I'd gladly spend my whole life trying.
[mmmm love that survivor's guilt! love having it also!
He holds her closer, closing his eyes.]
... She was right. You shouldn't be ashamed of living. None... none of us should be.
And I don't know if these things are something we should repay. I think it's better to think of it as giving back, perhaps. Sharing the happiness she helped us find.
[Actually what if she just sits in his lap? Because then she can lean into him and feel his heartbeat.]
...you're right. It's something that was given freely-- and that we give back freely, no matter what. So that's not really the right word. Sharing is much better.
I'd like to work on her self image a little, for starters. It makes me sad that someone so beautiful doesn't see that.
...and yeah, I know how that sounds, coming from me of all people. But it means extra to me, because she was always there, fighting my insecurities.
[She hums, thinking for a long moment.]
Maybe... something like a photo album? Something we could fill together with pictures of special memories together with her in it.
I know that... despite how she's feeling about herself right now, she's still really grateful for those times. So maybe that would be a nice way to show her.
[He laughs a little at the mention of Serenity's issues because, yeah, her of all people saying that is both a little ironic and sweet. KISSES THE TOP OF HER HEAD, GF CUTE]
That's a wonderful idea, Renny! I'm sure she would love it, and... I think it would be a good reminder of the fact we do love her. Because those times were important to us, too.
[Thinks for a moment, too...]
Ah... Crow has told me you used to be in a band together. Perhaps we could write Lily a song, too?
Exactly! It's something she could keep... for when she needs those reminders.
[When he brings up the band, that surprises her a little, making her blush.]
O-oh. That's right. I don't think you were here for the concert we put on here. It's a little embarrassing you heard about that.
[ESPECIALLY FROM THAT DUMB BIRD!! gosh]
But if it's instrumentals and that, you'd have to ask him-- I've only ever done lyrics and vocal. A song... would be really nice though. I know she loves music.
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Re: oh i did not hit send.
Date: 2021-09-20 05:42 pm (UTC)[He sighs, taking a sip of the drink.]
Glory once said that both me and Lily are the kind of person who is better at thinking about others than about ourselves. Though... I think you are like that too, Renny.
cw for mentions of survivor's guilt and suicidal ideation and the likes...
Date: 2021-09-20 05:53 pm (UTC)[She stopped counting after the second time.
She takes one hand back to grab her drink, continuing to hold his hand with the other.]
...she was the person who told me that it was okay to live... even if that meant hurting others. Even if I couldn't do anything. Back when I was ashamed of living, she stayed by my side and supported me.
So this... this is the least I can do for her. I don't think it's really possibly to repay her for everything she's done-- but I'd gladly spend my whole life trying.
Re: cw for mentions of survivor's guilt and suicidal ideation and the likes...
Date: 2021-09-21 03:39 am (UTC)He holds her closer, closing his eyes.]
... She was right. You shouldn't be ashamed of living. None... none of us should be.
And I don't know if these things are something we should repay. I think it's better to think of it as giving back, perhaps. Sharing the happiness she helped us find.
Re: cw for mentions of survivor's guilt and suicidal ideation and the likes...
Date: 2021-09-21 04:08 am (UTC)...you're right. It's something that was given freely-- and that we give back freely, no matter what. So that's not really the right word. Sharing is much better.
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Date: 2021-09-21 05:32 am (UTC)Yes. And I want to keep sharing it with her. And with you, too.
[...]
Do you think there is anything we could do for her? Together?
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Date: 2021-09-21 05:45 am (UTC)I'd like to work on her self image a little, for starters. It makes me sad that someone so beautiful doesn't see that.
...and yeah, I know how that sounds, coming from me of all people. But it means extra to me, because she was always there, fighting my insecurities.
[She hums, thinking for a long moment.]
Maybe... something like a photo album? Something we could fill together with pictures of special memories together with her in it.
I know that... despite how she's feeling about herself right now, she's still really grateful for those times. So maybe that would be a nice way to show her.
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Date: 2021-10-02 09:59 am (UTC)That's a wonderful idea, Renny! I'm sure she would love it, and... I think it would be a good reminder of the fact we do love her. Because those times were important to us, too.
[Thinks for a moment, too...]
Ah... Crow has told me you used to be in a band together. Perhaps we could write Lily a song, too?
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Date: 2021-10-13 09:16 pm (UTC)Exactly! It's something she could keep... for when she needs those reminders.
[When he brings up the band, that surprises her a little, making her blush.]
O-oh. That's right. I don't think you were here for the concert we put on here. It's a little embarrassing you heard about that.
[ESPECIALLY FROM THAT DUMB BIRD!! gosh]
But if it's instrumentals and that, you'd have to ask him-- I've only ever done lyrics and vocal. A song... would be really nice though. I know she loves music.
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Date: 2021-10-17 12:51 pm (UTC)I've actually been trying to write music lately. So I could do that, and you come up with the lyrics and sing it for her!