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[ween woon on the moon]
...Have they been difficult for you? The games.
...Have they been difficult for you? The games.
[nods, completely unsurprised]
Does it disturb you? That they'd be willing to use such methods.
Does it disturb you? That they'd be willing to use such methods.
[He's just, going to ruffle the fluffy blanket distractedly]
... Not as such. What does make me upset is that they act so... unconcerned about it. That... just because they think their choices justified, or because they didn't have another choice... the suffering that results from it doesn't matter much. That it is right to play so brutally.
[He shakes his head, clearly annoyed]
And just because their unit used to be villainized, they seem to think it fine to play to that stereotype. In the end, I don't understand it.
... Not as such. What does make me upset is that they act so... unconcerned about it. That... just because they think their choices justified, or because they didn't have another choice... the suffering that results from it doesn't matter much. That it is right to play so brutally.
[He shakes his head, clearly annoyed]
And just because their unit used to be villainized, they seem to think it fine to play to that stereotype. In the end, I don't understand it.
[...comes over to the bed to sit on it and pats the space next to him. come sit here buddy]
That is how we live with the things we have done. By letting ourselves care less.
That is how we live with the things we have done. By letting ourselves care less.
[He'll come sit :( sad. But also it's weird to be consoled by baby?]
... I understand it a little bit better now. But for the longest time... I could not.
[He sighs.]
It was a stroke of luck Emet-Selch decided to reach out to me in the end. It was on the same day that I'd decided that in order for me to still fit in with them, I would need to learn to care less as well.
[By forcing himself to do a lot of violence, which is obviously a very good tactic.]
It was only then he finally admitted that most of his behaviour is just an act.
... I understand it a little bit better now. But for the longest time... I could not.
[He sighs.]
It was a stroke of luck Emet-Selch decided to reach out to me in the end. It was on the same day that I'd decided that in order for me to still fit in with them, I would need to learn to care less as well.
[By forcing himself to do a lot of violence, which is obviously a very good tactic.]
It was only then he finally admitted that most of his behaviour is just an act.
Of course it is. He is as soft and sentimental as ever, just better at hiding it.
And the last thing he, or the rest of us, would ever want is for you to become as jaded as we have.
And the last thing he, or the rest of us, would ever want is for you to become as jaded as we have.
'Tis nothing to apologise for. You have been suffering a burden you never should have had to.
[kind of. tentatively pulls him into a hug? is this how comfort works???]
That you even have to know of such a brutal world is unforgivable.
[kind of. tentatively pulls him into a hug? is this how comfort works???]
That you even have to know of such a brutal world is unforgivable.
There is one thing you can do for us, though it will likely not be easy.
Believe. You need not understand our methods or agree with them, but believe that all we do is for the sake of our people. Believe that by Lord Zodiark's grace, we will be saved.
[He's quiet at first, because much as Elidibus says it's not a simple request.
Levity closes his eyes, trying to find the answer. After all this time in Imeeji, witnessing the cruelty of games and the mortal worlds... the well of desperation does run deep. Wouldn't it be nice to believe in a higher power? To know that you are protected, that there is something out there, looking out for you, that it's going to be all right?
Deep down, he wants to believe. Perhaps not directly in Zodiark - his feelings on the matter are complicated, - but in the salvation of his people, in the return home, in kindness and peace and harmony being in the nature of the universe.
He breathes out quietly, holding Elidibus a little tighter.]
... I will. As much as I can, I will.
Levity closes his eyes, trying to find the answer. After all this time in Imeeji, witnessing the cruelty of games and the mortal worlds... the well of desperation does run deep. Wouldn't it be nice to believe in a higher power? To know that you are protected, that there is something out there, looking out for you, that it's going to be all right?
Deep down, he wants to believe. Perhaps not directly in Zodiark - his feelings on the matter are complicated, - but in the salvation of his people, in the return home, in kindness and peace and harmony being in the nature of the universe.
He breathes out quietly, holding Elidibus a little tighter.]
... I will. As much as I can, I will.
You need not force yourself should you find you cannot. But... if you can have even a little hope in us - in me - it will be a great help.
[so many lorge hugs...]
There is no need for thanks.
There is no need for thanks.
I am glad you're here as well, Hythlodaeus.
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