Hien, I was... content to just let myself fade away eventually, mayhaps a tad more happily than I would have done otherwise. Or I would have done--something to try and save my world. But what if you are right? What if preventing the Final Days won't change anything? What would be the point of all my effort, then? Of all our efforts? I wish to know the truth. No, I need to know it. It may be horrible. It may break me. But the truth is better than this--this nebulous, listless existence.
[He clenches his fists tight. The last time... the last time he remembers feeling like this was in that moment when Atsushi pulled him back from the brink of suicide.]
[ Hien stays quiet. He's glad, in a sense, that Hythlo now has a sense of purpose without being consumed by his perpetual sadness. But is this... is this right? Hien knows better than to fret over rights and wrongs, but...
... ]
If that is what you have decided for yourself, I'll support you.
[And, just like that, regular Hythlo is back, a smile breaking over the earlier seriousness like sunrise. He looks... truly hopeful, for the first time.]
Thank you, Hien. It won't be an easy journey, but... I owe it to them. To my friends. To everyone...
[He inclines his head readily for the pat, still smiling. It seems to be partly the high that comes after intense emotions and relief, but at the same time his hopefulness is genuine.]
I am too. I am... so thankful, Hien. I feel like I can... move forward again.
Me too. Moving forward is one of the best things you can do. I'm proud of you.
[ He gives Hythlo a hug for good measure.
Admittedly, it feels a little strange to just... easily solve Hythlo's sadness in such a quick method, but he knows not everything is actually solved. But as long as Hythlo can move forward, that's what should matter more, right?
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Date: 2020-11-30 06:02 am (UTC)I... I know. I understand. But--
[Hythlo bites his lip.]
Hien, I was... content to just let myself fade away eventually, mayhaps a tad more happily than I would have done otherwise. Or I would have done--something to try and save my world. But what if you are right? What if preventing the Final Days won't change anything? What would be the point of all my effort, then? Of all our efforts? I wish to know the truth. No, I need to know it. It may be horrible. It may break me. But the truth is better than this--this nebulous, listless existence.
[He clenches his fists tight. The last time... the last time he remembers feeling like this was in that moment when Atsushi pulled him back from the brink of suicide.]
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Date: 2020-11-30 06:10 am (UTC)... ]
If that is what you have decided for yourself, I'll support you.
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Date: 2020-11-30 06:17 am (UTC)Thank you, Hien. It won't be an easy journey, but... I owe it to them. To my friends. To everyone...
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Date: 2020-11-30 06:20 am (UTC)[ He smiles at Hythlo a little and gives him a gentle pat on the head after adjusting his own position so that he can reach. ]
I'm glad I could help you sort things out.
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Date: 2020-11-30 06:29 am (UTC)I am too. I am... so thankful, Hien. I feel like I can... move forward again.
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Date: 2020-11-30 07:13 am (UTC)[ He gives Hythlo a hug for good measure.
Admittedly, it feels a little strange to just... easily solve Hythlo's sadness in such a quick method, but he knows not everything is actually solved. But as long as Hythlo can move forward, that's what should matter more, right?
...
Right? ]