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[weenwoon]

[You are greeted with the sound of randomly disrupted static, at the end of which three melodic beeping signals are heard. Yep, that's your cue to leave a message!]

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[rainshaveceased]

We might, but we will get through them.

[weenwoon]

[... holds]

Elidibus... What would you do if, in the end, I came to oppose you? Would you kill me?

[rainshaveceased]

...Why are you asking me this?

[weenwoon]

[SLUMPS,,]

It was something Emet-Selch said to me. That if I stood in his way, he would not hesitate to tear me down.

[As you can imagine that sure was A Thing to hear as a mostly-amnesiac uncertain of what the fuck is going on with him and the others.]

[rainshaveceased]

That was a lie. He would most certainly hesitate, if he could bring himself to do it at all.

[weenwoon]

[.... WEH,,, don't mind him he's going to have a moment and try not to cry]

[rainshaveceased]

[this seems like a good time for another hug actually]

[weenwoon]

[THANKS HE NEEDS IT

Still TRYING not to cry though but he's. Obviously tense. Listen he's been like AGONIZING over this ever since that day and Elidibus is the first person whose judgement he can actually trust on the matter?]

... thank you.

[rainshaveceased]

Honestly. Those two just cannot keep themselves from spouting all kinds of nonsense without me around, can they...

[weenwoon]

[SNIFFLES but there's a bit of a smile and relief in his voice]

Do you see what I mean when I say we're all very awkward?

[rainshaveceased]

I do.

[pats his back]

Is there ought else that has been weighing on you thus?

[weenwoon]

[Shaking his head]

That was the biggest obstacle, I think. Being frightened to disagree. Not knowing if in the end I would live at all, or have a place in the world they wish to create.

[rainshaveceased]

...Oh, Hythlodaeus. If anyone should worry about not having a place in that world, it is us three. Never you.

[weenwoon]

[HUGS TIGHTER :(]

... Don't be ridiculous. Of course you will.

[rainshaveceased]

...I must confess, I do at times worry. There will be no room for violence or cruelty in the restored world. Would not our presence, tainted as we are, be unseemly?

[weenwoon]

[no!!! holds the baby!!!]

... You are not 'tainted', nor unseemly. Please do not speak of yourselves like that.

[rainshaveceased]

[takes a deep breath]

My apologies. You are correct, I should not say such things.

[weenwoon]

[Worry.]

... But will you still think such things?

[rainshaveceased]

It would be difficult not to.

[weenwoon]

Then... when that happens, please seek me out. So I can help you remember it's not true.

[...]

I know it must sound hypocritical just after I've told you I struggle to understand Lahabrea and Emet-Selch in the harsher matters, but...

[He shakes his head.]

I'm sorry. This place fills me with fear, and that fear clouds my mind. Here, I am an outlier. A weak link. And weakness costs you your life, or... or worse. And so I fear, and in the fear fight back - sometimes, no, oftentimes blindly. But despite that... I know and I believe that you desire a peaceful world as much as I do. And I know that your harsher actions come not from willing or innate cruelty, but from the scars piled up on you over the course of these twelve millennia. If I were to call you tainted for that... It would be the same as saying that any who feel pain are tainted and wrong. And wouldn't that include myself?

[rainshaveceased]

Of course, I would never doubt the righteousness of our cause. I know that all we have done has been necessary for the salvation of our star. I know we are not wrong.

And yet, sometimes...

[weenwoon]

[... squeeze]

Is that doubt not proof that you wish to be kinder?

[rainshaveceased]

...Perhaps.

[weenwoon]

[Pets his hair, gently]

No matter what, you are still my people, Elidibus. You, and Emet-Selch, and Lahabrea. No matter what you've done... I still believe in you.

[Which is kind of why it fucks him up so much every time the others are like "haha! violence is fun"]

[rainshaveceased]

Thank you. Thank you. As long as you have hope in us, I can keep going.