[He'll come sit :( sad. But also it's weird to be consoled by baby?]

... I understand it a little bit better now. But for the longest time... I could not.

[He sighs.]

It was a stroke of luck Emet-Selch decided to reach out to me in the end. It was on the same day that I'd decided that in order for me to still fit in with them, I would need to learn to care less as well.

[By forcing himself to do a lot of violence, which is obviously a very good tactic.]

It was only then he finally admitted that most of his behaviour is just an act.