[There's a noncommittal shrug at that first part. Maybe it's just fuckin around, maybe not. Who knows!]

Trying to distract myself, mainly. Lily and Alexander need my attention rather more right now. I've spoken of my suspicions and fears with some of my friends, so I am not entirely without support, nor do I want to panic preemptively. So I am simply keeping busy until Alexander is recovered enough that we can speak of all this. D.Va is teaching me to drive, I've bought a car, we had a meeting with Absinthe in dreams last night, I still have projects to work on. There is plenty to take my mind off things, but I won't deny that it worries me still.