Hythlodaeus feels the urge to laugh--though the word is technically accurate, it also feels so... bare, in a sense, compared to what he'd gone through. That's like saying that the ocean is on the deeper side.
But the impulse leaves as quickly as it came, filling him with a kind of empty bitterness instead.]
...Dehumanizing is what it was. And--horrifying. I had to kill myself to escape. Had the nails still. From the boards. Stabbed one in my throat. Still feel it there sometimes. Still feel his hands on me. Want to claw my skin off.
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cw uh. aftermath of absinthe. suicidal ideation suicide mention vague reference to sexual assault
Date: 2021-02-12 10:17 am (UTC)Haha.
Hahaha.
Hythlodaeus feels the urge to laugh--though the word is technically accurate, it also feels so... bare, in a sense, compared to what he'd gone through. That's like saying that the ocean is on the deeper side.
But the impulse leaves as quickly as it came, filling him with a kind of empty bitterness instead.]
...Dehumanizing is what it was. And--horrifying. I had to kill myself to escape. Had the nails still. From the boards. Stabbed one in my throat. Still feel it there sometimes. Still feel his hands on me. Want to claw my skin off.