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Of course he would feel concern. None of us wish for you to be tempered.
Still. If it brings you comfort, then it concerns me less for the moment. Should you feel that waning, however, do not hesitate to seek one of us.
I do not know if it would be... harsh for you. But I worry.
Still. If it brings you comfort, then it concerns me less for the moment. Should you feel that waning, however, do not hesitate to seek one of us.
I do not know if it would be... harsh for you. But I worry.
[He tips his head thoughtfully.]
That was something Elidibus said, too. That he would not actually wish to temper me. I can't say I understand that hesitation completely.
[How to tell when someone is Not Doing Great: "what's so wrong about brainwashing"]
That was something Elidibus said, too. That he would not actually wish to temper me. I can't say I understand that hesitation completely.
[How to tell when someone is Not Doing Great: "what's so wrong about brainwashing"]
... Can you not? Most are vehemently repulsed by the concept.
[You aren't okay at all huh?]
[You aren't okay at all huh?]
You know that comfort comes with a steep cost.
Indeed our wills remain largely intact. But it cannot be denied that is not entirely the case. Zodiark would never wish us harm or do us ill, yet to spread His influence would be doing just that.
Indeed our wills remain largely intact. But it cannot be denied that is not entirely the case. Zodiark would never wish us harm or do us ill, yet to spread His influence would be doing just that.
Elidibus did ask me if I thought that comfort was worth giving up my free will. But ultimately... how does one truly define free will? And is it really a bad thing to give up a measure of it in exchange for security and comfort? People might find it repulsive merely because they do not truly understand. Having any strong conviction that one is guided by, that one clings to... is that not the same as being tempered? Looking to something greater than ourselves to grant us strength and resolve, to shield us from pain, in whatever way that might be.
Not to mention that if you were to think logically, such distaste comes merely from being different. Eliminate those differences, temper everyone, and there would be no need for that discord. Would there?
[anyway here's his motivation letter to apply for an ascian position?]
Not to mention that if you were to think logically, such distaste comes merely from being different. Eliminate those differences, temper everyone, and there would be no need for that discord. Would there?
[anyway here's his motivation letter to apply for an ascian position?]
[He sets his tea down, takes Hythlodaeus's hand gently to remove the tea from it and set it down as well, then pulls the man into a hug, if he can, trying to get Hythlodaeus to tuck his face against his chest or shoulder.]
[???? :) what's up with this, he was having a good time and doing great? He doesn't resist at all, though, hugging him back easily, resting his head on Lahabrea's shoulder... laughing into it.]
Lahabrea, what are you doing? Not that I don't appreciate the contact, of course...
[But why would u want to hug him... like he's sad or upset... ??? :) ]
Lahabrea, what are you doing? Not that I don't appreciate the contact, of course...
[But why would u want to hug him... like he's sad or upset... ??? :) ]
[He'll just, hold him tightly. He's not even sure what to say so it's a while before he manages any response. And the teasing tone is just a little strained.]
I believe they call this a hug, Hythlodaeus. Surely you've come across the concept.
I believe they call this a hug, Hythlodaeus. Surely you've come across the concept.
[ENJOY YOUR NEWLY TEMPERED BUDDY! He chuckles again, patting Lahabrea on the back. He really does just... seem very content, very relaxed, very happy. It's very sweet, really! What is there to worry about?]
Is it? My, what a novel invention. Do tell me more.
Is it? My, what a novel invention. Do tell me more.
[Look only one person here has experienced untempering and while Hythlodaeus doesn't have thousands and thousands of years of genocide and ignored trauma and grief to confront when this wears off he does know it is going to be rough regardless?
He just, pets his hair.]
I... am glad you are content in this moment. I only wish you could be so without aid.
He just, pets his hair.]
I... am glad you are content in this moment. I only wish you could be so without aid.
I like to think being with loved ones can be helpful but I am not the best judge.
[Cuz. Tempered.]
[Cuz. Tempered.]
... The true nature of it? Is that what he calls it?
An evolution of our relationship. I did not think it was lacking in any truth previously.
Well... I am not versed in the particulars of your relationship, much as I would love to be. But it seems that he was unaware of your - or his own feelings. Ah, and those of Hades, too. You make quite the adorable trio, if lacking in communication.
Those two as well?
[Who talks to people they love? ]
[Who talks to people they love? ]
[Slaps ascians, these bad boys can hold so much trauma, bad coping, and not communicating.]
If so it was not exactly in each other's presence.
If so it was not exactly in each other's presence.
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